eat a happy dog.

i'm getting that depressed feeling of despair again. and i don't exactly know why.

i don't like it when JCs are in session. when that happens my daily existence just becomes my grandfather, my aunts, commuting to school, being at school, commuting back, rinse, repeat, dry.

but i just went out to dinner with jensen, dax and xuan. so, even if some sods didn't come, the above doesn't apply. for now.

so what's getting me down?

i think i know. i think i just don't want to say, for various reasons, one of which is the fear of ruining things.