the mess is me, by the way.
i think i'm starting to put the weight that i lost whilst i was in china back on. must stop eating completely.
i am certain that somewhere within me is a thin person ("just the one, dear?"), just waiting to break out. however, i eat when i am depressed or upset, and there's no lack of food where i live, and where i live is very often upsetting. also, my life is very depressing.
hence.
went over to dax-and-cedric's today. got updated on a number of the lives i have neglected, and felt a bit left out, as i usually feel when i am around human beings not related to me by blood (conversely when i am around human beings who are related to me by blood, i feel far too left in, too involved). the fan-tastic burger by mcdonald's is horrible, so horrible i've decided to forget how it tastes and what it was, lest i become biased against the rice burgers at mos burger, which i've never tried and have been assured are miles better.
apparently matt got sent off into the army by xuan today. now, if it wasn't bad enough that xuan was the sender, it appears that he's already found someone he loathes in his bunk.
it's five AM. what am i doing up? right, my sleep cycle now starts at five AM and ends at three PM. must do better, must try harder.
i'm caught up. i don't know what to do.
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