it hasn't.
it has, however, done a 360° spin, and i think i'm all the better for it.
the morbid thoughts have returned to the back-burner--i've an A1 for English, which is all i wanted [except for entry into poly]. an L1R5 of twenty-seven is not impressive at all, but i'm looking at my L1R4 of seventeen. i am all set for poly. there appears to be a temporal future for me, after all.
i originally wanted to go only to NYP because it's fifteen minutes away from my place, by bus. now that i have options, i've changed my mind [no, i haven't just realized that it's stupid to limit your future to travelling distance, i've known it all along and couldn't give a toss].
when i got my results [in the Victoria Hall canteen? what a reception. why not the parade square next time?] i made my calls and sat down to take it all in. i thought about my options. mr tan chongkiat came over and talked to me about a media design course, which i had considered for some time. i was going to put a call to yitchun to find out more about the Diploma in Multimedia & Infocomms Technology he was pursuing--i was thinking about taking that course. and then there's the media courses i was thinking about.
we went to the Siglap Cafe Cartel for a late lunch. matt flipped through the JAE booklet and advised me to try for a Diploma in Law & Management at Temasek Polytechnic. it was absolutely brilliant. that will be my first choice. i don't know how to explain it, but i may have found my carrer path. i've going with my gut feeling on this one.
Law & Management it is. now all i need to do is decide what else i want as backups.
went to a gig at The Third Place today [after spending two hours in library@orchard killing time whilst matt went home to shower and xuan went jamming--potential attempters of this feat, take note: your back will be in pain after sitting bolt upright in one of their backless seats, leaning against the metal partition for said duration]. i didn't know what to expect, but i certainly wasn't expecting a J-Rock group. the first group [Parousia] was good, and so was the last one [they did a cover of Audioslave's Like A Stone as an encore]. my nose bled [it happens every few months--it's kind of like my nasal period] between the J-Rock group and the last group. i have yet to go find out what triggers these random haemorrages. i probably should though.
the gig ended around ten-thirty. we walked a bit to Great World City, had a bite at the McDonald's there, then xuan matt and i piled into a cab, dropping matt off at city hall.
it was a great night. not such a great day, but one of the better evenings i've spent in a long while.
i was worried for quite a bit though. pat disappeared right after he got his results in school, apparently upset over them. and xuan brooded a bit about his too, though his score is perfectly respectable it leaves him with little options, the best of which involves staying in ACJC--using the all-consuming debate team [the training hours are ridiculous. till 9:30 PM, three days a week] as his anchor.
sigh. i seem to be living through other people again. it's hard to be/stay happy when your friends aren't though. the only happy felt was for matt's six points [proving he didn't need to get hung up over his results before, anyway]. somehow it doesn't bother me at all that the people i surround myself with vastly outperform me acadamically. i'm happy with my lot, and i'm happy for them.
it's a great night, be it for listening to good bands, trekking through Orchard Road's bus-stops in search of a discontinued service, attempting to convey the ideas of "it's along Outram Road" and "it's near the Tiong Bahru pau place" to a mainly mandarin-speaking taxi-driver [hint: say OUTram, not OUtram, if you can manage it don't bother with English, and don't bother asserting that you are infact a singaporean and neither japanese nor korean--do matt and i look japanese/korean?], walking leisurely from Outram Road to Great World City, taking a long comtemplative cab ride, or spending two hours reading in the library.
i don't think i've felt so happy in a long, long time.
"The miles just keep rolling
As the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope it gets better as we go"
- "Here Without You", 3 Doors Down
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